Was at Mamak having drink with my sis n cousin, msg ring tone sounded..
Lai: Oi .. I saw u
Me: Oh, i saw u too
Lai: U look like slim down dy. Stressed?
Me: Haha .. illusion. Having study leave now. Already one month.

Went to Khairul's open house
Khai: Hey, lepas Ben balik terus kurus.
Me: Haha, jampi kut.

Happy = fat
I think i look better when he is not here, at least not like ppppiggie.

Couldnt sleep well

The conversation is still very clear in my mind, even though it was middle of the night.
I m really shock with the comments. 5 yrs ... things hav not been brought up. But now, i really dunno how to face it. I tot, i'd made a significant exist in his life. I tot I have change and lighten up his dark world underneath.
Perhaps misreabling it.

M i juz too strong to every other ppl???? Do i look so tough? I am juz a lil creature. A woman who wants to be at the back of a strong man. I juz wanna sumbody to stand up for me, assist me in making decision, lead me when i m lost. I dun wanna be to take the lead anymore.

Whoosh ..
tired .. exhausted .. confused
Finally willing to let go.
fly high .. kite ~

Devil wears Prada .. 2

Went to KK Ng, a local designer boutique with a fren today.
She was supposed to mend her gown.
Ends up trying a lot of differrent gown.
They are great man !!!
But the prices are ... minimum 980. OMG .. how can i afford
The most expensive that i can afford is only eclipse, BCBG.
Perhaps, that' the difference btween designer and normal.
For a thin n pretty gal, i think any thing will look good on her.
But ppl like me, fat, big hips .. dang ..hahahah
Only designer clothes can hide the bad and enhance the good.
Now you know, why Marc Jacobs, Valentino, Prada always looks gd.
Coz, devils is wearing it .....

Pictures

Organising my pictures in my laptop.
One fren scolded me for not backing up.
Kekeke .. this is just me, Lazy
It seems, our pictures are so limited.
We did not take much pictures together.
Perhaps, he doesnt like to take picture.
But, my memory is very limited.
Lots of things, had been forgotten.
How??? too late now
How i wish he can be with me again
I wanna take a lot a lot of our pics
I think there will never be enaff
Things that we did together ..
Place we visited together ..
The laughter ..
Stupidity ...
I think : I need a Camera !! Haha

CPA first paper

Finally, one paper done.
Had been struggling these few days.
No mood to study but have to.
RPP: 3 hours, 60 MCQ questions, 5 short answer
Fighting against the time.
Whooosh ... finally the digital at KL convention centre shows 12:30

One Paper Down !!!

but .. one more to go
one more week to go
Gambatte gal~

Devil wears Prada

Finally watched this movie.

Waited for so long.

I liked this movie very much.

Perhaps, it is showing the real side of our daily life.

It is really the dream of all gals.

I luv the work Andrea is doing.

Full of challenges, excitement ...

Like it when she describes those ppl as "clkrs"

Cant deny, there are full of "clkrs" outside

But, it is the clkrs that make life so interesting

Change in wardrobe will change your life

However, change in your direction

will lead to a betrayal of your soul.

Prada, Marc Jacobs, Armani, Versace

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Wish list

Shifted recently. Finally can own an apt by myself.
Lost so many things.
Praying hard for my wish.

I wish to have ...
A new camera, to capture all the sweet moments in my life.
Watch, a leather wan coz i m tired of those stainless steel
Aircond ~for my new apt
Gucci tote if i pass my 2 CPA papers
Porchette PM Twin from Mr Santa
Video Cam for my birthday next year
Card with you lipstick kiss ... evil ~
Tokidoki Le Sportsac for my very young heart
but most importantly
to have you be with me for every occasion
but i know, it will not work anymore

Hey god, Do you hear me?
Have you got my wish list?

Kelantan's trip

Went back for a week. Cool ~

Kelantan is still the same, just that the road had sum changes.

Had been very busy helping my mum in the coffee shop every morning.

Jazmyn followed me back this trip.

In case you hav no idea abt Kelantan ....

here are sum pics provided by her.

Still luv this place very much.

Beca ... trishaw, which is still very common

Very old and traditional house in the rural area

Sarah's wedding

Sarah's wedding.
On the 7th of October 2006
Held in a church, at Seremban.
was a bit late .. woops ~
She was very pretty, really.
She looks so elegant in her white gown.
This is the dream of any women
And finally, she had hers come true =)

Promised her that I'll b there, thus, I was there. Woke up very
early that day, to catch a train there. Luckily, I am still on time, to
see her exchanging the rings, blessing from the pastor and the most
important thing, a very quick kiss from her hubby. Aha~ they are
just so shy. Had been knowing her for 3 years. Time flies. Was very
happy and touched on her wedding. Perhaps, the joy of hers had

spread to everyone of us in the church.


Dear Sarah,
I wish the best of you and
your hubby.
May your marriage be blessed
with happinness and love.

Archive from Friendster's blog - July 2005

10-7-2005
Friends

"Have u ever think about this? Who are your frens?? Is he/she ur real fren, best fren or juz a hi-bye fren?"

I have a lot of frenz in my 21 years life. People come and go ... :( When i was very young, during my childhood life, my only and best fren was Evonne. May b due to our parents, we hav been going to the same skool since kids. Our mum juz wan us to be in the same school. When time pass, i knew sum other frens. In my primary school, i get to know a few frenz, who accompanied me through out my primary school life. (thanx to shu hui, siao sian siao hui and hoon shien)

Well, as i started my secondary skool, another fren come into my life, Yuen Meng. She is a real good fren to me. Unfortunately, we spend only 2-3 years very close. After that, we were further apart .. due to different classes. Then i get to know Suat Nie. We get to know each other through our society. She brings me in and involved in a lot of activities, then get to know more people. And at the end of my secondary skool life, here comes Tan Yee Pin. We get closed in the tuition class. Share our ups and downs, our luv life and small little secret. Unfortunately she is so far apart and we need to put in sum effort to meet each other ..so sad.

Aft that, Yau yau would b the next important fren in my life. She is with me, through out this 4 years of college life. We r together for every single little project. I wonder y we can b so click. But wat i know is that we understand each other well. Another miracle for me is get to know Audrey. This brat knows me quite well even though she is 2 years younger.

As for the workplace, well ... i have been working in Starbucks for almost 3 years ... can u imagine that ? I m so loyal. kekeke ... i get to know so many people over there. From Kenny .. Rose's batches, to Siew Li, Michelle .. then Audrey, Su Ann etc etc. Wow .. I cannot admit that i hav a lot of frens. We do quarrel ,fight but we get better aft that. This is a miracle .. in every of our life.

To hav a true fren is not easy. Each of us need to be initiative to create the chance to meet each other. As time goes by, there'll be more n more frenz come into ur life. But ... do bare into mind ... only true fren will stays in your heart. Adios~

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17-7-2005

College Started

Hai... so fast my holidays end. So sad .. :( How i wish i still can sleep till late late ... dun wanna wake up. I really enjoyed my holiday life, no worries, no books. Juz put on weight ... haha. Thanx to dear for putting on my weight. Well .... a new semester, and yet, my last semester. Can't afford to fail at all. So much pressure for me. Hai ~ wat to do ... study lor. Pray for me yeah ~~!! All the best to me too .. "Jia You"

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28-7-2006

Unforgettable Day

28th July 2005 ... this is a very special day to me ... and i think i will not forget this day through out my life. I can't describe my feelings ... sad...guilty... release the worst.. i duno what should i feel. Y ?? Y must i hav this kind of feelings? Y mus i go through all this ? Y is the GOD so unfair to me ?? I dun mean to hurt anyone ... n i dun wan. Pls forgive me for being selfish... my heart is also bleeding inside. Cry ???? i think i hav no more tears to roll down. No matter how, i learnt ..to be TOUGH. I will have to face a lot of problems later in my life and i will need to handle it by myself. There are ups n downs and no matter how, u will need to keep on leaving, the least thing u could do for urself.

Don't worry dear, i will be tough. This is only a part of the challengesi will have to face.

I will be strong as wat you said in your message.

Archive from Friendster - Bali Trip 3-7-2005

Juz came back from a trip to Bali. It was a very wonderful trip. After the bombing incident 4 years back, Bali is still the same, peaceful, romantic and elegant. The people are so friendly, i dunno if it is because we are tourists. But as they knew that we r from Malaysia, and we can speak some Bahasa Melayu, they even start to chat with us in Bahasa. OMG ... some of the words we dun even know the meaning. Gosh ... hav to keep on ya ya ya .. :) I like the people in hotel especially. They really make every one of us, i mean the guest feel so at home. They greet no matter where they meet us, in the restaurant or even on our way to the pool. Everyone will keep on smiling, nodding the head. So nice .. I really like that kind of feeling. It makes me feel like i m one of the VIP (but actually every1 are) .. haha.

The first night, we spend some time in the lounge, listening to a life band. There's no any other customer in side, only 2 of us. While listening to the nice melody, 2 of us actually walk to the middle of the dance floor, and dance. Very peaceful, gracefully until the music stop. Aft 4 years being together, i suddenly feel that i luv him a lot, really much. We are so near that there's no gap btween our heart. I luv that kind of feelings. Wun get it anywhere else, only at this quiet romantic island.


We spent 2 nights in Nusa Dua, a very quite and high-end resort area. Every night, we will walk to the beach, listen to the sound of the big waves, crashing on beach. We laid on the bench, with the breeze in our hair.
We caught little crabbie and tried to keep them but failed every time. They are quite cunning.. hehe.


The barbeque seafood sunset dinner was very unforgettable. The sun set by 6pm. We sat by the sea side, having big fat juicy 1.7kg crab and grilled snapper with sweet and sour prawn while enjoying the beautiful view.

The best part of Bali is shopping and the Spa. We keep on bargaining everytime we purchase. From 95 000 rupiah ... i can get 20 000 rupiah in the end .. haha. Not bad huh !!! I bagged 15 pairs of sandals ... "keng" lehh. our luggage was real ly full. Haha. As for the Spa ... Bravo !! U muz not leave without it. I actually went for 2 times ... it was so relaxing. They even designed the package for couple per room, equipped with a cute luv shape bath tub and a small garden.

Bali .. it is a real fantastic place. U will never want to return home . I wish i can go back again. Next year perhaps .. :)

Archive from Friendster's blog (June 2005)

15-06-2005
Exam life !!
Argh ... hav been going thru a tough and hard time this 2 weeks. This final exam is making me crazy. Everyday doing the same thing. Eat, read, sleep and wake up. I dun like this kind of life. I really hate it. Feel so pressure, I m afraid that i might fail. Fail ?? !! Barred word in my dictionary. I can't affordand i dun wish too, even though i knew that mum wun blame me for that. But i juz can't accept it. May b it's my character, i dun fail, dun lose. Haha .. life ... this is life. I hav to accept if it really happen. Well. i have one more last paper to go. All the best to me, support me yeah Frens ..

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17-6-2005
End of Semester !!
Here we go, the end of the 5th semester. Finally exams ends... When Dr Lim announced, "times up", i dunno y, my heart was so excited. Even though i wish i hav extra few minutes to touch up my essay, but i juz can't wait for the paper to end. Immediately, i keep my stuff and prepare to leave. Haha .. that's it. That's all about this semester. I dunno how many subject that i will fail. But i m pretty sure, i m failing my Corporate Finance Analysis (CFA). I dun care anymore, the only thing i can do now is fully enjoy my holiday, the prepare to retake the subject next sem. Anyhow, i can't afford to fail my Applied Company Law (ACL), must until next year only can retake it again. I dun wan to waste my time, my money .. I DUN WANNA FAIL!!!!!!! Stupid me ... Ok ok, forget about everything .. enjoy my one month break 1st. I m planning .... my vacation starts ...

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18-6-2005
Life is short, Enjoy it.
Mum called while i was working in Bukit Raja ... quite surprised as she seldom call me during day time, only if she needs me to do sumthing.

Surprisingly, when i call back she said that she was in the saloon. Enjoying life huh ~~!!. But, the reason behind her call is to tell me about the death of my ex-boss's husband. He died in a suddenly, without any symptom, not even a single phrase or message for the wife. Juz fainted while drinking and there goes his entire life, THE END!!!

I wonder, how will his wife act? How is she coping with all these in a sudden. Imagine, someone that has been sleeping beside you for years, juz left u alone .. Y life is so unpredictable. Y can't god juz give us sum hint, let us have sum time to prepare and to accept some fact ??? You, me.. everyone of us will not know wat will happen next minute. Y muz we think so far?? Y cant juz maintain watever that is happy, even though it might be short, but it is happy, real happiness.

Let us juz do watever we wish, we like and we wanted to. There might be more n more disaster coming near us that we wouldnt know.

Life is short, enjoy ur life, dun regret sum other day later ...

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23-6-2005
Sunway Pyramid Starbucks refurbishment
Wohooo ... finally Starbucks Sunway Pyramid has a new clothes.
Well, it takes those contractor 1 whole week for the renovation. But, i din c much difference in side. The only thing changed is the wall paper, slightly lifely, but looks messy. Anyway, it is always good to have at least sumthing new, at least we dun feel bored working in the same environment.

To think about it, it has been almost 3 years for me to stay with Starbucks Sunway Pyramid. I joined when i started my degree and now, my course is ending in 4 months time. Time flies very fast, i dun even hav the time to look back, on watever that happens in this 3 years. I hav to admit that Starbucks had been accompanying me through out this 3 years, to fill up all my emptiness in my life. Especially aft Ben left to the states, i totally depends on IT to pass my time. There are so many things that happen in side, but it is still a very good memory to me. I have had feelings with "it". It is jus like my 2nd home ... to search for laughter. Ppl come and ppl go, so many batches of frens come n leave. This is life. Learn how to adapt n survive.

Surprise >.-

He just received my parcel.
It takes it almost 3 weeks to arrive man.
I knew that it is not helpful, but then, it is just a lil that I can do,
A lil surpise.
I think every surpise that we receive, will light up our boring life.
I like surpises, perhaps, need to give more surprise to other,
Then, I will be surprised =)

Boring Training ....

Sigh .. trainings are always boring. Sit there, looking on the laptop screen, yawning ... playing games, onlining ... I wonder what had i learnt this 5 days. Luckily it is already the last day ..and tomorrow onwards, I will be on Study Leave. Wohoo .. finally can get sum rest. Still have FRS coming up aft my break. Gosh. :(

w-i-n-n-i-e

During my college time ...

Woops ... after sideways expansion ( n i m still eating)

Here i come ....

Here i come ...

Blogging !!!

Stupid frienster, can only publish 10 latest blog. All the blogs will be my memory ... as my memory is getting weaker. I m so afraid, that my memory will get weaker and eventually, i will forget whatever that happen in my life. I am afraid to lose, to miss and to shredde any moments in my life. Things will come and go, so do people. I just want the best in my life is there, whenever i want to recall. Shall get all posts in friendster to be shifted over here, one by one .....